Starting to feel hopeful...
I feel really good this morning. Proud. Hopeful. A little thinner.

Yesterday was the 1st day of February, and I must say, I did REALLY well diet wise. Not necessarily because I tried, but pretty much because I had no option. Lunch & dinner I ate what I brought with me, nothing more. So portion control was great. After dinner we went to babysit my nieces, and my sweet tooth REALLY started acting up!! I wanted sugar unbearably!!! BUT, there was none around, so I couldn’t have any. It made me a little irritated, and I thought “as soon as we get home, I’ll have some sugar.” But by the time we packed up to leave and were driving, I was SO happy that I hadn’t had sugar!

It was really nice to be able to stick to the plan, even though I was really fighting it. It worked out great (it's cool to look back & see how God worked it out) I’m really hoping that since yesterday was so good that it’ll help me to realize (and accept) that I CAN survive with limited portions and little to NO sugar… that would be awesome!

On this Naturally Slim plan that I am supposed to be following… I am not supposed to have any obvious sugar for 3 weeks. I’m going to call yesterday day 1 of the 21 days I need to be sugar free to break my addiction … I hope I can last the next 20 days. They say that after day 4, it becomes really easy. It’s the 1st few days that are awful… I’ll let you know how it goes.

Tomorrow is my official weigh in of the week. I must say, I feel a bit thinner. My pants are fitting a bit less snug. I ended January weighing 190.2 my goal for tomorrow is to weigh in at 189.0 or less… I’m really hoping for less, but I’ll be satisfied if I at least lose this 1.2 lbs. I decided to be a bit more realistic. Instead of hoping to lose all 50 pounds at one time, I’m setting smaller goals of 1 pound per week. If I can at least do that, then by the time the next New Year’s party rolls around, I should be about 50 pounds thinner! Then I can REALLY enjoy our hotel/pool party! Really looking forward to it.

I’ll let you know what I weigh in at tomorrow…
January Update
You can do all the planning you want,

But if you don’t take action, all your

Planning will be in vain and nothing

You do will flourish.

This hit the spot this morning as I was reading my calendar. January has gone, and I achieved no success with my dieting at all. I had all these plans, all these dreams, and I did absolutely nothing to achieve them. I kept thinking about doing something, but I didn’t give it any effort. I thought I would just lose weight without actually trying. Yeah. That didn’t happen.

Not only did I not do anything to help myself lose weight, but I also kept putting off blogging about it because I felt like such a loser.

Well, time to fess up. I am a loser. (Wish I was a weight loser, but I’m not). I was lazy & not motivated most of January. There were a few days where I “attempted” to diet... but that only lasted... well... a few days.

I started January weighing 188.60…  then during the actual month I ended up gaining around 3 pounds which put me at 191.4. For someone trying to LOSE weight, I sure wasn’t doing a good job of it. I ended the month weighting 190.2. Not a good month at all (but only weight wise), other than that it was an AMAZING month!

I definitely planned… planned to be strict with myself and to follow a good diet faithfully. Planned to lose at least 8 pounds for the month of January. But did I take any action? Nope. Not at all. Did I flourish? Sure, but not the way I had hoped. My body flourished & got even bigger.

I have this weight tracker app on my IPhone. So one day, I was looking at my “stats” and I burst out laughing. It listed my statistics such as my maximum weight, minimum weight, and my average gain/loss (which, by the way, said that I have been gaining an average of ½ pound per week)  since I’ve been using the app. Then at the very bottom it said: “At this rate, you will NEVER reach your target weight.” Really? Seriously? That is SO un-motivational! I know it’s true based on my stats, but still, to actually read it seemed a little harsh (but eye opening).

I sure hope I can do much better in the month of February…
Last Update - Summary for 2010
I know I haven’t updated in a while. Been meaning to, but it’s been just such a busy, fun month that I just put it off… until now.

So my goal for December was to lose 7 pounds by New Years so I could be “ok” with wearing a bathing suit at our hotel pool. Yeah. That did NOT happen. Not only did I not lose the 7 pounds, but I gained 1 on top of that!! At least it’s just 1 and not more. But still, it sucks.

I started the year at my highest (non-pregnancy) weight ever. In January I weighed in at 194.0. Crazy!! I gave birth to my 3rd child at 193 2 years prior to this… so to not be pregnant and to weight that much… not cool at all!!

In January 2010 I started a work provided program called Naturally Slim. Within 10 weeks, I lost 10 pounds. After that I tried several other diets such as the South Beach Diet & also Weight Watchers amongst a few others. The lowest that I got down to for the whole year was 178.1. I was on a roll and very excited. But that’s as far as I got. Little by little, instead of going down, my weight started creeping back up…

Now it’s December 2010, and I weighed in at 188.0 this morning. So that’s a total of 6 pounds lost in 1 whole year. Kind of seems horrible. But if I look on the bright side, it is 6 pounds down instead of up for the year.

I have big plans and hopes for my weight in 2011. I plan to jump right in come January and really stay focused and stick to ONE diet for the whole year, instead of trying a new one every few weeks and not really giving it time to work the way it’s supposed to.

My diet choice for 2011 is Naturally Slim. Why? Because it’s the easiest, the cheapest, and it’s the one I lost the most weight on in 2010. I only gave it 10 weeks in 2010 and I lost 10. So, if I give it the full 52 weeks in 2011, I could be 52 pounds lighter by 2012…. Actually, I would like to be 50 pounds lighter by May of 2011… but we’ll see how that goes.

Hope you have a wonder New Year’s celebration!! Spend plenty quality time with your loved ones, enjoy your time, and may you have a blessed 2011!!
I got an iPhone!
Apple iPhone 3Gs 16GB Black OS 4.0 (Refurbished)
I have great news! I finally got an iPhone!! For those of you that know me well, you know that I have wanted one badly for SO long!! But finally, I have one!! And do I love it?? Yes I do!! Not only is it as good as I thought it would be, it’s even better!!

There are so many awesome apps on there that you can download, and there are tons that are free! I have many on there that work really well to track your weight loss (or gain), the food that you eat during the day, counts your calories, there are also apps that track your exercise, give you advice, track how much water you drink during the day. I am really big on “seeing”, so I REALLY enjoy tracking all my stuff, that way I can see it all laid out for me in graphs or charts or whatever way I choose to organize it.

A few of my favorite apps are:

MyFitnessPal
- MyFitnessPal (tracks pretty much all your weight related stuff)





TargetWeight
- TargetWeight (tracks your weight, sets goals, lets you know how much you got to lose by when)




Water Lite
- Water Lite (tells you how much water you should be consuming for the day, and keeps track of how much you actually drank)




IdealWeight
- Ideal Weight (tells you what YOUR ideal weight should be; according to them, my weight should be 153 pounds, which sounds right to me. That means I have to lose 30 pounds!! Wow!! That’s a big number! But, I’ll break it down, maybe into 10s, or even 7s, and try to aim at smaller goals at a time…hopefully, sooner than later, I will reach my Ideal Weight)

So far those are my favorite weight loss tools on there…. Keep in mind though, I have only had the iPhone for like 2 weeks or so, so I have yet to look through all the apps… and we’re just the talking the free ones for now.. who knows how many awesome ones there are that you actually have to pay for ; ) maybe one day I’ll splurge and purchase a few… lol

I would like you to share with me. What are YOUR favorite apps on the iPhone? Are there any on there that you think are worth paying for? Have any of them actually helped you in your weight loss journey??

Looking forward to hearing from you!!
My Diet Update
I’ve been meaning to update for quite some time now, but it seems that I can never find the time. Well, right now, I am sitting here at work with NOTHING to do, so I thought “why not now?”

There’s really not much to say. All the weight (7 pounds) that I lost on my starvation journey (The Master Cleanse) I have gained back. I was disappointed, but not surprised. 

After I went off of the cleanse, I decided to just relax and take it easy. And slowly, over a couple of weeks, the pounds crept back up. I am REALLY happy that I did not gain more than I had lost. 

The holidays have begun, and so has the appearance of delicious food. Each morning I decide that “I will be good today” and the same thing happens: Goodies show up! Obviously I cannot NOT have a few of them…. 

Yesterday was December 1st. I can’t believe it. The year is almost over. This has probably been the fastest year of my life... either that, or I’m just getting old... lol

Anyway, I decided that I need to lose about 7 pounds by the end of December (my family is getting together in a hotel to celebrate New Years… in the hotel is a 24 hour pool… a pool means wearing a swimsuit… ugh. The dreaded swimsuit.) 

Anyway, so I decided to try and lose at least a few pounds by then so that I can enjoy myself a little more. That same day that I vowed to be good, Abby walks into work with a PLATTER of homemade goodies. I just looked at her, and all my “plans” went out the window. She made Fudge Peppermint Brownies. Let me tell you. Those were THE BEST brownies I have EVER had in my life!!! 

Now that I look back at the moment, I could have… no SHOULD have... taken ONE brownie and eaten it SUPER slow and actually enjoyed it. But did I do that? No! Sadly, embarrassingly, I swallowed like 4 of them within just a mere few minutes. WHY?? WHY?? WHY?? Do I do that to myself!! It’s like as soon as something seems good, all my “self control” goes out the window until I am done devouring whatever it was that was put in front of me. Then the regret, the sadness all sets in and I think to myself “Next time, I will NOT do that. Next time, I will eat really slow, enjoy my food, and control myself.” But does that happen? Nope. Only in my head does that actually take place.

Anyway, my goal for this month should be an easy one. I want to lose 7 pounds in 30 days. That shouldn’t be TOO impossible, right?
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