Showing posts with label eat. Show all posts
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So last week when I weighed in on Thursday I was thrilled. I weighed in at 188.4, which meant that I only had to lose 0.6 oz to reach my goal of 187.8. I was really motivated & excited... for a little bit anyway.
Then reality set in. I just went crazy with food. It makes me disgusted to even think about, not to mention write about how my eating was for a few days. It all seems a blur right now. I don’t know what happened, but I feel like I ate everything in sight.
On Sunday we took a day trip to Seattle. The day itself was absolutely amazing! I had so much fun; I can’t even put it into words… We took the boys to the Lego store, they got to play there & pick out Lego's that they wanted to bring home with them. They really enjoyed that.
Me… well… let’s just say I got “spoiled”. I FINALLY got to go to a real Coach store. Here in Spokane, we don’t have a Coach Store. The closest we get is Macy’s carrying a few Coach purses and that’s it.
Anyway… I went all out & bought 2 Coach purses & a wallet… I was so happy I think I shrieked with excitement when I left the store!
So the day was great, but deep down I was really feeling horrible about my eating. We stopped for breakfast. I wasn’t hungry, but I ate. We went out to lunch with my brother & his wife. I wasn’t hungry, but I stuffed myself. Later on, after shopping, my sister-in-law & I went out for dessert. Once again I wasn’t hungry, but I still ate a bunch of really yummy dessert. THEN after all of that… we went out to dinner. I was NOT hungry at all. Yet I ate. Then, I ordered more food. I shoved a few bites down and thought I might explode, so I threw the rest of the food away.
So here is my summary. For a few days now, I have been eating absolutely crazy horrible. Why!!?? WHY do I do this to myself!!?? I just don’t get it! I’m not hungry, but I eat. It makes me feel disgusted with myself & I vow I will never do it again. Just a few hours later (sometimes minutes) I do the same exact thing all over again. Why can’t I just get it through my head that food will always be around. If I really want something, I just need to wait till I am HUNGRY, then I can eat it, and actually ENJOY it without feeling guilty.
Am I the only one who is like this? Does anyone else have this issue or am I just absolutely messed up?? Ugh! So frustrating!
Tomorrow is my next weigh in. I’ll let you know how I did. Ultimately, I’d like to weigh in tomorrow at 187.8 or LESS!!! Preferably less ; )
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Then reality set in. I just went crazy with food. It makes me disgusted to even think about, not to mention write about how my eating was for a few days. It all seems a blur right now. I don’t know what happened, but I feel like I ate everything in sight.
On Sunday we took a day trip to Seattle. The day itself was absolutely amazing! I had so much fun; I can’t even put it into words… We took the boys to the Lego store, they got to play there & pick out Lego's that they wanted to bring home with them. They really enjoyed that.
Me… well… let’s just say I got “spoiled”. I FINALLY got to go to a real Coach store. Here in Spokane, we don’t have a Coach Store. The closest we get is Macy’s carrying a few Coach purses and that’s it.
Anyway… I went all out & bought 2 Coach purses & a wallet… I was so happy I think I shrieked with excitement when I left the store!
So the day was great, but deep down I was really feeling horrible about my eating. We stopped for breakfast. I wasn’t hungry, but I ate. We went out to lunch with my brother & his wife. I wasn’t hungry, but I stuffed myself. Later on, after shopping, my sister-in-law & I went out for dessert. Once again I wasn’t hungry, but I still ate a bunch of really yummy dessert. THEN after all of that… we went out to dinner. I was NOT hungry at all. Yet I ate. Then, I ordered more food. I shoved a few bites down and thought I might explode, so I threw the rest of the food away.
So here is my summary. For a few days now, I have been eating absolutely crazy horrible. Why!!?? WHY do I do this to myself!!?? I just don’t get it! I’m not hungry, but I eat. It makes me feel disgusted with myself & I vow I will never do it again. Just a few hours later (sometimes minutes) I do the same exact thing all over again. Why can’t I just get it through my head that food will always be around. If I really want something, I just need to wait till I am HUNGRY, then I can eat it, and actually ENJOY it without feeling guilty.
Am I the only one who is like this? Does anyone else have this issue or am I just absolutely messed up?? Ugh! So frustrating!
Tomorrow is my next weigh in. I’ll let you know how I did. Ultimately, I’d like to weigh in tomorrow at 187.8 or LESS!!! Preferably less ; )
Coach Soho Pleated OP Signature Khaki Blue NS Tote Coach Signature Poppy Applique Tartan Shopper Bag Purse Tote Khaki Multi Coach Fuchsia - White Signature C Op Art Charm Tote Bag Handbag Style
I’ve been meaning to update for quite some time now, but it seems that I can never find the time. Well, right now, I am sitting here at work with NOTHING to do, so I thought “why not now?”
There’s really not much to say. All the weight (7 pounds) that I lost on my starvation journey (The Master Cleanse) I have gained back. I was disappointed, but not surprised.
After I went off of the cleanse, I decided to just relax and take it easy. And slowly, over a couple of weeks, the pounds crept back up. I am REALLY happy that I did not gain more than I had lost.
The holidays have begun, and so has the appearance of delicious food. Each morning I decide that “I will be good today” and the same thing happens: Goodies show up! Obviously I cannot NOT have a few of them….
Yesterday was December 1st. I can’t believe it. The year is almost over. This has probably been the fastest year of my life... either that, or I’m just getting old... lol
Anyway, I decided that I need to lose about 7 pounds by the end of December (my family is getting together in a hotel to celebrate New Years… in the hotel is a 24 hour pool… a pool means wearing a swimsuit… ugh. The dreaded swimsuit.)
Anyway, so I decided to try and lose at least a few pounds by then so that I can enjoy myself a little more. That same day that I vowed to be good, Abby walks into work with a PLATTER of homemade goodies. I just looked at her, and all my “plans” went out the window. She made Fudge Peppermint Brownies. Let me tell you. Those were THE BEST brownies I have EVER had in my life!!!
Now that I look back at the moment, I could have… no SHOULD have... taken ONE brownie and eaten it SUPER slow and actually enjoyed it. But did I do that? No! Sadly, embarrassingly, I swallowed like 4 of them within just a mere few minutes. WHY?? WHY?? WHY?? Do I do that to myself!! It’s like as soon as something seems good, all my “self control” goes out the window until I am done devouring whatever it was that was put in front of me. Then the regret, the sadness all sets in and I think to myself “Next time, I will NOT do that. Next time, I will eat really slow, enjoy my food, and control myself.” But does that happen? Nope. Only in my head does that actually take place.
Anyway, my goal for this month should be an easy one. I want to lose 7 pounds in 30 days. That shouldn’t be TOO impossible, right?
There’s really not much to say. All the weight (7 pounds) that I lost on my starvation journey (The Master Cleanse) I have gained back. I was disappointed, but not surprised.
After I went off of the cleanse, I decided to just relax and take it easy. And slowly, over a couple of weeks, the pounds crept back up. I am REALLY happy that I did not gain more than I had lost.
The holidays have begun, and so has the appearance of delicious food. Each morning I decide that “I will be good today” and the same thing happens: Goodies show up! Obviously I cannot NOT have a few of them….
Yesterday was December 1st. I can’t believe it. The year is almost over. This has probably been the fastest year of my life... either that, or I’m just getting old... lol
Anyway, I decided that I need to lose about 7 pounds by the end of December (my family is getting together in a hotel to celebrate New Years… in the hotel is a 24 hour pool… a pool means wearing a swimsuit… ugh. The dreaded swimsuit.)
Anyway, so I decided to try and lose at least a few pounds by then so that I can enjoy myself a little more. That same day that I vowed to be good, Abby walks into work with a PLATTER of homemade goodies. I just looked at her, and all my “plans” went out the window. She made Fudge Peppermint Brownies. Let me tell you. Those were THE BEST brownies I have EVER had in my life!!!
Now that I look back at the moment, I could have… no SHOULD have... taken ONE brownie and eaten it SUPER slow and actually enjoyed it. But did I do that? No! Sadly, embarrassingly, I swallowed like 4 of them within just a mere few minutes. WHY?? WHY?? WHY?? Do I do that to myself!! It’s like as soon as something seems good, all my “self control” goes out the window until I am done devouring whatever it was that was put in front of me. Then the regret, the sadness all sets in and I think to myself “Next time, I will NOT do that. Next time, I will eat really slow, enjoy my food, and control myself.” But does that happen? Nope. Only in my head does that actually take place.
Anyway, my goal for this month should be an easy one. I want to lose 7 pounds in 30 days. That shouldn’t be TOO impossible, right?
I have been dreading writing this post. Why? Well, maybe because I have quit something yet again. It’s getting to be quite embarrassing.
I started the Master Cleanse with the hope of doing it for 40 days. I highly doubted that I could go that long, but I thought I’d give it a try.
99% of my reason for doing this cleanse was for weight loss. The other 1%, I thought, if I cleaned something out, that would just be a bonus.
The 1st few days were going great. I was able to go without eating, not happily, but easily for the most part. I felt great, and I was losing weight.
I think my 4th day into it, I gained a few ounces. I wasn’t too upset, but it did catch my attention. The next day, I gained a FULL pound. I know that sounds ridiculous, but when you are eating absolutely NOTHING and you start to GAIN weight… in my opinion, that’s not normal. As soon as I saw the numbers on the scale, I was done. I was so disappointed. I kept thinking “how can I be gaining, if I’m NOT eating?” I decided that if I am going to gain weight, I might as well be eating and enjoying it rather than starving and STILL gaining. So that day I decided to start getting off the cleanse. My main purpose of the cleanse was to lose weight, not gain it. I decided there was absolutely no reason to continue torturing myself any longer.
I lasted a full 5 days on the cleanse. Total I lost 7 pounds, and then started gaining it back. It’s been about a week since I got off, and I am too afraid to get on the scale. I think I might have gained all of it back by now. So disappointing.
Overall, I think that if you truly need to cleanse, this is the way to do it. I felt absolutely perfect while doing it. I just don’t think that it’s wise to do this for just weight loss, like I was doing. It’s not worth the torture. I’d rather learn to eat differently and be able to do it the rest of life rather than having to starve.
The drink itself was gross. After having to drink it for so long, it made me want to gag, and thus I ended up drinking less and less of it… and I think that put my body into starvation mode… thus the weight gain.
So yes; I quit again. I feel like a failure, but I won’t let it get me down. I will just keep trying. I never know which diet that I try will finally be “the one” that will set me free from this fat journey of mine.
Ah. It’s off my mind now. I can relax now and enjoy my life ; )
I started the Master Cleanse with the hope of doing it for 40 days. I highly doubted that I could go that long, but I thought I’d give it a try.
99% of my reason for doing this cleanse was for weight loss. The other 1%, I thought, if I cleaned something out, that would just be a bonus.
The 1st few days were going great. I was able to go without eating, not happily, but easily for the most part. I felt great, and I was losing weight.
I think my 4th day into it, I gained a few ounces. I wasn’t too upset, but it did catch my attention. The next day, I gained a FULL pound. I know that sounds ridiculous, but when you are eating absolutely NOTHING and you start to GAIN weight… in my opinion, that’s not normal. As soon as I saw the numbers on the scale, I was done. I was so disappointed. I kept thinking “how can I be gaining, if I’m NOT eating?” I decided that if I am going to gain weight, I might as well be eating and enjoying it rather than starving and STILL gaining. So that day I decided to start getting off the cleanse. My main purpose of the cleanse was to lose weight, not gain it. I decided there was absolutely no reason to continue torturing myself any longer.
I lasted a full 5 days on the cleanse. Total I lost 7 pounds, and then started gaining it back. It’s been about a week since I got off, and I am too afraid to get on the scale. I think I might have gained all of it back by now. So disappointing.
Overall, I think that if you truly need to cleanse, this is the way to do it. I felt absolutely perfect while doing it. I just don’t think that it’s wise to do this for just weight loss, like I was doing. It’s not worth the torture. I’d rather learn to eat differently and be able to do it the rest of life rather than having to starve.
The drink itself was gross. After having to drink it for so long, it made me want to gag, and thus I ended up drinking less and less of it… and I think that put my body into starvation mode… thus the weight gain.
So yes; I quit again. I feel like a failure, but I won’t let it get me down. I will just keep trying. I never know which diet that I try will finally be “the one” that will set me free from this fat journey of mine.
Ah. It’s off my mind now. I can relax now and enjoy my life ; )
