Crazy Busy Weekend
Wow.... so I don't even know where to start. It's been a while since I had a moment to get on here... so this will be quite a long update. Hope I don't bore you too much ; )
Up until last Friday (April 23rd) my dieting was going well. I was making conscious decisions and tryingn hard, knowing that Saturday was coming up and we were going to a Chinese Buffet.
So Friday night we went to my sister Jenni's (and her family's) house. She is really into baking right now. So there were fresh out of the oven "poppy seed bulochki" (looks like a cinnamon roll minus the frosting) and some yummy cake. We watched Young Victoria. Don't ask me what I thought of it... I accidentally fell asleep through the middle hour or so of it... so I'll have to watch it again. After the movie ended, we did what most Russians do. We had tea with "bulochki". And you can't just have one ; )...

Saturday morning I went in to work for a few hours to help with the "inventory". That was kinda fun. They served us a typical breakfast: Starbucks coffee and doughnuts ; ) Can you imagine a tiny room full of people loaded with caffeine and sugar?? lol.... actually... I left a few hours into it.. so I don't know if anything "out of the ordinary" happened....
At 2pm we met up with my parents, brothers, and sisters at the "Best Of China" Buffet for my brother in law (Valik's) 32nd birthday. It was fun and I was able to hold my self from eating everything in sight. Actually, I didn't have much of an appetite due to the fact that "someone" had REALLY made my blood boil just a few minutes prior to the party starting. I mainly focused on the sushi there. It was really good that day.
After the restaurant we all headed over to my parents house so that we can just relax and hang out. We also had dessert there. There were several delicious homemade cakes to choose from... that I could not resist, so I can a slice..... maybe two...but who was counting?? lol...
At around 8pm we decided to call it a day and started getting all the kids ready to head home.. when out of no where Jenni and Valik were like "lets all go to a hotel"... um.... ok. It was one of those "spontaneous" moments. We all headed to our homes, packed a few necessities and met at Ameritel out in Coeur D Alene, ID. 
One of the many things that we really like about this particular hotel is that the swimming pool/ hot tub is open 24 hours. So from Saturday night until Monday morning... we spent most of our time alternating between swimming, eating, and lounging around. There were a few occasions when we went for walks or shopping.. but the kids mainly wanted to swim.. so swim we did! It was truly refreshing for the body, mind, heart, and soul to be able to just relax and spend so much quality time with the people that we love so dearly!! It was a little hard to leave our "little unexpected vacation" behind and return to normal life, but it had to be done. 
Tomorrow is my weekly weight in. I gotta warn myself (and you)... it might not be a "weight down" day... I mean really, when a person spends a full weekend surrounded by food..... you know what that means to the scale..... I'm sorta dreading it lol... But come morning.. I will get on that scale.. and I will report back here....

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Roller Coaster of Feelings!
Excitement. Achievement. Joy. Regret. Guilt. Worry. Stress. Exhaustion. Fear. Hope.
Those are all the feelings raging inside of me at this one very moment. How can I one person feel so much at once and all about one subject? 
I feel excitement, achievement and joy because I went shopping... and I was able to buy SMALLER clothes!! Currently I wear a size 12 in Misses. I know. It sounds/feels huge. But today I was able to buy a few articles of clothing that were size 10.. one was even a size 8!!! Can you imagine how happy I was/am!!! 
At the same time I am feeling regret and guilt. Why do I have those feelings you might ask?? Well, let me tell you. Because I had sugar today. AAAHHHH... I know.. lol.. thats not all though. My sister Jenni invited my family to join her family for dinner. I knew I was in trouble. They cook SO good!! So for dinner we had oven baked Salmon and baby red potatoes with butter & dill. Along with that we had organic Caesar salad and fresh home baked bread. What do you think I did?? I ate. And I ate. And then I ate some more. It tasted SO unbelievably good I just couldn't stop myself!! And to make matters worse (or better, depending on which way you look at it) for dessert we had absolutely delicious Tiramisu and home-baked Russian "bulachki". Ugh! Don't get me wrong, I loved every minute of it. Now I am just thinking of tomorrow morning... when I have to get on that scale again... That's where the worry, stress, and fear come in. I am worried that when I get on that scale in the morning, it will have gone up instead of down. And that REALLY stresses me out.
But I also feel hope. Somewhere deep down inside, I know that I can still go on, even if tomorrows numbers don't make me happy. Not everyday is like this. Most days I do REALLY well. I achieve all my goals. But then there are some days that I just let myself savor the moment... (and then freak out about it). But I just have to not give up. One day might set me back a bit... but I just need to get back up and start trying my hardest. Back to my baby steps. Focus on the day at hand. Not the hard day behind, nor the goal that seems unreachable. But at the moment at hand. What can I do NOW that will help me? With God ALL things are possible!
 
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Weekend Update
This weekend has been so amazing and so full that I didn't even have the time to get on here and update my blog. I want to reassure all of you the I am still sticking to my goals. I want to say that for the last week, I am very proud of myself. I was able to achieve all my set goals for the week. 
I decided that I can be a little more lenient with myself on the weekends. Gives me some motivation to know that at the end of the week, I CAN have some yummy sugar! So this weekend, I allowed my self to enjoy a Chocolate Drumstick, and some birhtday cake (with a few random sweets on the side) all spread out through the days.
I went well above my goal for steps. Some days I almost reached 13,000. I love wearing this step counter. Instead of sitting for 2 hours while watching a movie, I actually walk about 80% of the time. The step counter totally keeps me moving. We were gathered around the bon-fire a few nights this week, and instead of just sitting there, I get up and march in place. I was told I look ridiculous.. but you know what.. I really don't care. It makes me feel really good to see the steps adding up. And I know its good for me to move instead of just sitting there like a blob. 
I don't think I've had such a wonderful weekend in a long time. I got off work decently early Friday, had ALL my sisters over for a small dinner/snack and a movie. It was a very late night. Saturday morning... Heather and her adorable kids came over for a play date. That was really fun. We were able to be outside most of the time and my 6 year old son was able to learn to ride an adult size bike. That was quite something to watch! 
After that we got together at my parents farm for quite a feast and then hung out around the bon-fire. Came home and watched The Time Travelers Wife with hubby.. the quality time was really nice. I'm not so sure about the movie. I guess it was ok. 
This morning was really amazing. It looked like summer. It smelled like summer. It felt like summer... we acted as if it were summer. LOVED it!! We went to a park, did some walking/hiking, then did some shopping.. (I LOVE shopping!!).. and then went to a birthday party. It seems like every single moment was busy with something fun to do. But I am now enjoying just being at home and relaxing. I gotta say... God sure is AWESOME!! He makes everything perfect!
A new week is right around the corner. I am hoping to achieve ALL my goals again. Just to summarize for the up coming week: at least 96oz of water, at least 10,000 steps, and no sugar.... so help me God... 
Come on people!! Give me some comments... motivate me... be supportive!
 
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Day 3 & 4 (Plus the WEIGHT IN)
I haven't had a chance to get on the computer for personal use (I'm on it all day at work, just can't do "my" things from there). I'm happy to say that day 3 and 4 went very well. Both days I achieved my set goals (besides the little sugar/health issue). I drank well past my 96 ounces of water both days. On day 3 I had a little issue. I took my lunch to work with me. Was STARVING by 9am ( I usually do NOT eat breakfast), so I ate my lunch food. I was fine until about 4pm, but then I started feeling hunger kick in again. By about 5:30pm, I thought I was gonna pass out. I have times where my blood sugar drops too low if I don't eat for a long time... this was one of them. So I needed to make a decision. I could have some sugar (hot chocolate was the pick of the moment) or I could risk fainting... hhhhmmm... what a choice. What do you think I did?? Yep, I gave in and had some hot chocolate. That was my sugar for the day... I'm not too worried about it thought cause it had way more water in it that was "suggested" on the packet. AND I had a lot more plain water after that. Within about 5 minutes, I felt great! 
As for my steps: day 3 I was able to get in 10,626 (we rented Arctic Tale for the boys and I walked through pretty much the whole thing).
Day 4 was a little more fun and easier to get the steps in. I was invited out to lunch with a few girls. So I walked from my work all the way down to Olive Garden downtown. I really enjoyed the walk. Had a fun lunch of bread-sticks and soup (there was salad too... but I didn't want any)... then we walked around a bit, did a tiny bit of shopping... and I walked back to work. That got me quite a lot of steps. 
It was such WONDERFUL weather, I called my husband and asked him to have the boys ready so we could go somewhere as soon as I got home. We ended up getting together at my parents "farm" with my siblings for a very fun evening. I was the first to get there, so while I was waiting for everyone else to show up, I got a few thousands steps in.. I did some walking, some jogging, lol... the goats and cows were eying and following me along the fence. They probably thought I was quite weird. But it was very different than my usual way of getting steps in! After everyone got there, the "camp" fire was set up and we sat around that for a few hours. I didn't sit too long.. took that time to get a few more steps in (I just walk in place). When I wear the step counter it makes me feel like I'm wasting time if I'm not moving... which is nice cause the more I move, the more fat melts off... so my total for day 4 was 11,927 steps. Not bad, I think.
So now for my weight in..... drum roll please......... anyone??? Ok... so I got on the scale yesterday and it read: 184.2 So I ALMOST lost a full pound... 2 more ounces... but I'm ok with that. Really ok actually.... makes me want to try even harder....
I know I wrote a lot... but I want to also add that I really didn't even think that anyone was reading my blog. But lately people have been "popping" up and supporting my idea of writing this down... that was really nice to hear. Thanks for everyone who is reading this and upholding me. This might not make sense to some people, but my weight has been a struggle all my life. For some odd reason it is REALLY hard for me to lose weight, no matter how hard I try. So even the slightest weight LOSS feels like GREAT SUCCESS to me! Thanks!!
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Day 2
Today was quite different. I got off work early (Thanks Meghan!).. so I took the opportunity to kill 2 birds with 1 stone (not literally). I got to spend some quality time with my younger sister Alyona and at the same time I got to take care of some shopping needs for my boys. Some stores are actually closed by the time I'm off work (usually close to 6pm) so I have a hard time getting to them. It was a fun afternoon. 
Having so much fun actually made it really hard for me to reach my goal for today. I achieved 2 out of my 3 goals. I got 10,156 steps in, AND I did NOT have ANY sugar!! Now THAT was hard. Probably harder today than yesterday. For some reason, I was craving sugar so badly, and watching my sister sip on her Italian Soda did NOT help... I tried to focus on other things... and chew some xylitol gum. It seemed to help.
Spry Xylitol GumI love chewing Spry Xylitol Gum. It is sugar free, but it has xylitol in it which is acutally GOOD for your teeth (and it tastes just like a regular piece of gum). Having xylitol in a piece of gum does NOT count as having sugar, but it is very helpful in curbing the craving. The picture on the left is the gum that I am talking about. Try it.

The one goal that I was not able to achieve today was to finish drinking my 96 ounces of water. I would have done it, if I would have taken the water with me. I did not expect to be out and about, so I was unprepared. I was about 2 cups short on my water intake today. Not too bad, but I still failed to achieve my goal. Bummer. I will definitely have to try harder tomorrow.
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Day 1 is Over!
Day one is just about wrapping up. It was quite a good day for me.
Work was nice and mellow. Came home, had a fun dinner with my family. Then we went and picked up my 2 new pairs of glasses (one regular and one prescription sunglasses) I can see again!! ; )
 We went to the mall, got lots of walking in (its good for all of us and very fun). Afterwards we just spent sometime together at the bookstore. That was fun. 

How about my dieting?? Well, I must say. I am quite proud of myself!! I was able to achieve all of my goals for today!! It was hard. I really had to focus and push myself, but I am so proud of myself. I drank ALL my 96 ounces of water (even had extra cause I drank 2 cups tea AND 1 cup coffee that I didn't count as "water"). I had absolutely NO sugar today!! Now THAT was hard!! And I walked OVER 10,000 steps (10413 to be exact)!! Yeah!!
Now off to bed so I can rest and start all over again tomorrow!!
I wanted to say that I can't do this by myself. I have to constantly pray and ask God to help me. To guide me. To be with me and to help me not get overwhelmed. Not just with dieting, but with life in general. I can't (and don't want to) imagine life without God in it. Actually, God is in our life whether we want Him to be or not. I'm glad to have CHOSEN to WANT Him in my life!
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My Goals
Today I want to take the time to jot down my goals. I have several of them. 
My long turn goal weight is: 155  I would LOVE to be there by my 26th birthday (but that's only about 1 month away) There is no way I can lose 30 pounds in 1 month.
My short term goal for this week: To drink 96 ounces of water. Here's the formula to find out how much water you should be drinking: take your weight (185) and divide it by 2 (so that makes it 92.5) I want to know how many cups per day that is, so I divide that number by 8 (since it takes 8 ounces to equal 1 cup)... which gives me 11.56. I just round up to 12 cups, which in turn rounds up to 96 ounces. That is how much water my body needs PER day. I thought I drank lots of water before. But when I actually paid attention to my consumption, it turned out I was barely drinking even 2 cups per day. No wonder I had migraines. I was absolutely dehydrated! That was quite an eye opener. 
My next goal for the week: Not to eat ANY sugar at ALL!! This will be tough... sugar has always been hard for me to give up... hopefully each day will get a little bit easier. 
omron HJ-112 Pedometer
My 3rd goal for the week is: to walk at least 10,000 steps per day. I've been through several pedometers. And let me tell you.. they were such garbage! Each one had some sort of an annoying problem. Some wouldn't count right. Some would just decide that they wanted to reset and I'd lose all my data. Some would just NOT stay on... After trying about 4 or 5 of them, I finally got the perfect one! The picture on the right is the one that I have (if you click on the picture, it will take you where you can buy one also) I love it!! So far, I've been wearing it for about 2 or 3 months now, and I have not had even a single problem with it. I am overly satisfied!
I would LOVE to be able to lose at LEAST 1 pound per week. But knowing myself and my dieting background I just don't know if its possible. I want to believe that it is. I will try my best and see if I can make it happen.
This is a brand new week. A brand new day. I will start with a clean slate and try my hardest. I will take baby steps. For today, I will ONLY focus on achieving my goals for this day. I will not try to leap. 
Let the journey begin!!

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What a day!
Today was definitely "A DAY"! I got up at 4:50 AM ... (I know.. I must be crazy or something!)... I felt a "little something" coming on. So I decided to take some precautions. I took Zinc.. on an empty stomach... and I went to exercise. About 10 minutes into my DVD... I felt SO nauseous. The next 40 minutes or so were spent alternating between exercising and puking. Finally I just quite exercising. I just sat there. I had to get ready for work by this time.. except I was still unable to leave the bathroom. At that moment, oh how I wished Jo was not on her vacation. I didn't even have the option of calling in sick. I had NO idea why I was puking or how long it would last. 
Eventually I started feeling better. I was able to get ready for work. Before I left, I went and had a talk with my husband. I asked him how he feels when he takes the Zinc. He said he feels nauseous and has to just be still for a while. OH. That would have been nice to know!! Here I am doing a TON of movements... No wonder I puked. 
So here's my wise advice to you: Do NOT take Zinc on an empty stomach. And when you do take Zinc... make sure to stay as still as possible for a while.. 


If you have a great source of Zinc, that does NOT make one spend the morning puking, let me know what it is ; ) I'm on the lookout for a great supplement ; )


Oh. As for my dieting. I was a little bummed, with my exercise routine being "ruined", I just didn't even feel like trying during the day. The whole day just felt ruined (diet wise). But I still kept an "eye" out and was careful not to overindulge.
Oh but get this. Today was "weigh" day. I weighed in this morning (don't judge me and DON'T be mean!) at a whopping 185.4. I know. That's like a ton. After I was done exercising/puking I thought it'd be fun to weight in again. Lost the .4 lol... hhmm... maybe I don't mind puking all the much ; )

In the evening we went to a birthday party. It was nice. Lots of food to indulge in. I would say I did pretty well. Kept myself under control... did have some sweets though ; ) 

There was a lady at this party. I think she comments about my weight EVERY single time I see her... so her comment today was.. "remember that ONE time you used to be skinny".... um yeah.. sure.. cause there WAS only that ONE time. Jeeze. Seriously?? I never know what to say to those kinds of comments. Or to those kinds of people. They frustrate me. As if that's ALL that matters is my weight. Seriously, it gets annoying. But I guess its those kinds of people and those kinds of comments that make me want to try harder. Just to not have to listen to them anymore. I bet even if I was super stick skinny... they'd still think I was too fat. 









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My Intro
So.. Where do I start? 
Let me just say: this is my first blog. So be patient. Eventually I will get the grasp of it and be good ; ) (hopefully).
My name is Anna. I am 25 (very soon to be 26). For as long as I can remember.. I have struggled with my weight. I think a lot of people can relate to that. 
I love to write. I love to keep records. I love discovering and trying new diets and exercise routines. Maybe its not so much love as it is hope that "maybe this will finally be the one". But it keeps me going. I keep trying.. not always with great success.. but life goes on and I try again. 
I often hear that "writing it down" helps with pretty much everything. Thus this blog. I decided I can kill a few birds with just one stone. I can and will use this blog to "record" my journey, my ups and downs, not just in my weight loss battle, but in my life as well (I hope there will be a lot more downs in the weight category, and a lot more ups in my life ). That's one bird. The other bird is me being held accountable not only to myself, but to my readers also. When a tempting piece of candy is calling my name.. I will think twice about eating it because I know that later on I have to tell the whole world that I gave in. I don't want to do that. Yet another bird is advice and motivation. I will post blogs on here and I WILL have questions or dilemmas. I will really want your feedback. Advice is awesome!
So not to drag this out anymore... be patient with me... Be supportive... Keep tabs on me and help me to stay focused on my weight loss goal. Motivate me. Educate me.
I am very excited and look forward to making this blog (and my weight loss) a success!
Please join me for the adventure!

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